if anything happens all I WANT IS FOR YOU TO DO WHAT IS RIGHT FOR YOURSELF.WHATEVER MAKES YOU HAPPY,I'LL BE HAPPY AS WELL!I LOVE YOU FORVER AND EVER AND EVER.HAHA! guess i have to make good my word then. i know its too late but i still have to say it.seeing the life in cambodia, all i wanted when i get back was to make you happy to make up for all the nights you spent crying to sleep.i swore i'll change for the better.didnt realise your feelings could change so fast.too fast my dear. when i was there,did you know i was reading the smses you sent over and over again?did you know i kept a photograph of us under my pillow just so i could look at it the first thing i wake up.did you know you were the reason i really feel happy bout coming back? i know we did quarrel and you were unhappy with me most of the times but i thought we got stronger everytime we make up after that.15 months my dear.10 days.then it was all over.what happened to your forever love?loving you 24/7....what happened? yesterday was the day i lost everything.i've been in a daze ever since i woke up.i dont know what to do.what to feel.anger?sadness?maybe a mix of both. i dont mind if you're going to end it because you're unhappy with me and all.but i cant accept it if its because of him.i really cant.i feel cheated. i've never stop you from going out with your friends right?never.but i just said know your limits. i strongly believe that we had more good times than bad times but why did you say other wise?i've never been happier with anyone else other than you.seriously. but if being with him truly makes you happy then i rest my case.hope we can still be friends.but just remember i'll never be the same again.im willing to wait.i really am. because i truly love you and will always do. im publishing here cos i know theres a higher chace you might read it here.i thought of writing it in your blog,our blog.but then i think it has lost its worth in your eyes already.so i apologise in advance if i may cause any adverse effect due to this post.i really dont mean it.i just want you to read it.