my poetically pathetic life:)

im starting the road to self-damnation

all i want is to just hear your voice.why cant we be friends?

forever ends today

Avenged Sevenfold Lyrics Dear God Lyrics
dear god,the only thing i ask of you is to hold her when im not around when im much too far away...

i kept listening to this song when i was away.i pray that you come home safely.

forever ends today

friends and families kept me alive

rugby kept me sane

i miss you very much

give me another chance to write- sincerely yours and sign my name,ps i love you

forever ends today

everything i do,everywhere i go,im reminded of you.

mi rugby went to safra yishun for a teambonding work shop.we did rock climbing.yes rock climbing.for every rock i touched i was reminded of the time you asked me to climb with you.i was stupid not to do that.i miss watching you climb.i can never be any prouder whenever you won in any competition.i miss you jolyn.thanks to the rugby guys i pulled through that day.i had so much to say at the airport you know.i knew you were awkward talking to me with him around.i tried holding your hands.but you pulled yours away.what happened to the 'spaces between my fingers are meant to be filled with yours'?i was reluctant to bid farewell so early but i knew when i had to go.you were already so uncomfortable with me.what is there left to say.i cried to my dad telling him what happened on the way back.that was the first time.i've never felt so comfortable talking to him.

today was suppose to be our 16 months.but actually its already been two years plus since i've gotten to know you.the only thing i could wish when the clock striked 12 was HAPPY 16 MONTHS OF ME LOVING YOU.i hope you're well.i hope you have not rush into things yet.it took me a year plus just to shoulder some heavy responsibility of being your boyfriend dont tell me he can do that in a week.i cant say much now.i really dont want to.and today my mom spoke to me.and today was the second time i cried to her cos of you.im not shy to say that i cried.and probably you've cried too much too thats why things have turned out to be like this.and im sorry.i truly am.

thanks to all my friends who have supported me along the way.i really dont want to play the victim.shes not the one at fault as well.i hope you guys will stop telling me to find someone better too.cos shes the better that everyone is saying.to kenny,i really wanted to bust your nose that day at the airport.the only thing that stands between me and your bloody nose is jolyn.i dont want her to hate me for doing that.wish we could talk.

mom told me eversince she came to know that we were both together,she prayed everyday that if we are not meant to be together she asked that God ends it soon so as not hurt us both later on if we prolong it further,but she also prayed that if we are meant to be,she prayed for strength for me so i could make the relationship lasts till death comes calling.

are these the results of her prayers?i dont know.are we really not meant to be together?she told me to pray and hope for the best.maybe i should.i'll pray that you come home safely.period.

i miss you,friend.

forever ends today